Ronda Rousey had suicidal thoughts after loss to Holly Holm

Ronda Rousey was so upset in the hours after she lost to Holly Holm in November that the former UFC champion contemplated suicide.

In an appearance on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” that is set to air Tuesday afternoon, Rousey opened up about how hard her first career loss hit her both physically and emotionally.

“Honestly, my thought, I was like down in the medical room in the corner and I was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’ I was literally sitting there thinking about killing myself at that exact second,” Rousey explained while fighting back tears. “I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s— about me anymore without this.'”

Rousey, who previously labeled herself “really f—ing sad” while describing some of her gruesome injuries, said her boyfriend Travis Browne reminded her that she has plenty to live for.

“To be honest, I looked up and saw that my man Travis was standing there and I looked up at him and was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,'” she said with a laugh. “I was thinking I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest. I wouldn’t have made it without him.”

While it’s no secret that Rousey has struggled since the loss, it is a positive sign that she recently returned to training. When you read about the history of suicide in her family, you know Rousey would never exaggerate about something like that. The brutal knockout kick from Holm (video here) will likely haunt Rousey forever.

You can see a portion of Rousey’s interview with Ellen below: